Its been more than an year and almost like four attempts that I have appeared for my exams..But I'm clueless.. I am unable to clear this thing.. The failure attached to this makes me wonder as to where's my life exactly headed.. The last time I posted, I had given my first attempt of my exams and was very wishful that I would definitely clear those exams as I have been clearing in the past.. But then, I was taken aback by the result that came out.. I failed..!!
And this time by a large margin.. My hopes were shattered and I started analyzing what went wrong.. The only thing that kept me up was my family.. specially my Dad.. he kept on encouraging me and reminded me that these are professional exams and its okay to face these things.. I was quite motivated this time and then appeared again six months later.. But then again.. I lost.. and this time I was lagging behind by just a few marks.. This thing demotivated me so much that I almost went into depression.. I quit talking to anyone related to my field or my office members and since last year I haven't been to that place due to my results..
Some people asked me to quit and focus on something else.. But coming this far and quitting was not my choice.. I had put almost five years of my life into.. how could I quit?? Giving up is simply not in my books.. but then this time I thought, that I would give the exams in breaks.. (like 4+4)..
So i started preparing and was almost fully determined to crack atleast one group.. but who knows what destiny has planned in for me.. during my prep days, I lost my maternal Granpa.. :( I was shattered again.. and the atmosphere at my place wasnt the least favourable for studying.. yet I knew that was ample time to study for those 4 subjects, I just couldn't concentrate.. Yes, those people out there who just view my life as third persons, asked to me quit making excuses.. so well yes, I failed again..
I took me a lot of courage and constant reminders and a hell lot of motivation to appear again.. and this time too, I have appeared and I am awaiting my results to be declared next month.. But one thing is sure, no matter what happens this time, I am not going to lose myself just because of the negative result..
There have been instances to take away my concentration in my "just appeared" attempt as well.. But I am prepared this time.. Positive or Negative- I dont mind.. All I know is that I am not going to give up..
Although I do feel at times that where exactly is my life taking me career wise, yet I know the picture will be clear to me in the coming five years..
'Cause one of my teachers wrote in my slam book once:: "easily achieved things are forgotten easily, Its the hard earned things that makes you what you are in life".. and this thing motivates me till now.. I am out of the depression zone.. and helping Dad these days in taking coaching for professional exams and also I am focusing on my handmade cards creations..
I hope things get clear pretty soon..
:) with a positive feeling for the next year to come.. Ta-Da... :)
And this time by a large margin.. My hopes were shattered and I started analyzing what went wrong.. The only thing that kept me up was my family.. specially my Dad.. he kept on encouraging me and reminded me that these are professional exams and its okay to face these things.. I was quite motivated this time and then appeared again six months later.. But then again.. I lost.. and this time I was lagging behind by just a few marks.. This thing demotivated me so much that I almost went into depression.. I quit talking to anyone related to my field or my office members and since last year I haven't been to that place due to my results..
Some people asked me to quit and focus on something else.. But coming this far and quitting was not my choice.. I had put almost five years of my life into.. how could I quit?? Giving up is simply not in my books.. but then this time I thought, that I would give the exams in breaks.. (like 4+4)..
So i started preparing and was almost fully determined to crack atleast one group.. but who knows what destiny has planned in for me.. during my prep days, I lost my maternal Granpa.. :( I was shattered again.. and the atmosphere at my place wasnt the least favourable for studying.. yet I knew that was ample time to study for those 4 subjects, I just couldn't concentrate.. Yes, those people out there who just view my life as third persons, asked to me quit making excuses.. so well yes, I failed again..
I took me a lot of courage and constant reminders and a hell lot of motivation to appear again.. and this time too, I have appeared and I am awaiting my results to be declared next month.. But one thing is sure, no matter what happens this time, I am not going to lose myself just because of the negative result..
There have been instances to take away my concentration in my "just appeared" attempt as well.. But I am prepared this time.. Positive or Negative- I dont mind.. All I know is that I am not going to give up..
Although I do feel at times that where exactly is my life taking me career wise, yet I know the picture will be clear to me in the coming five years..
'Cause one of my teachers wrote in my slam book once:: "easily achieved things are forgotten easily, Its the hard earned things that makes you what you are in life".. and this thing motivates me till now.. I am out of the depression zone.. and helping Dad these days in taking coaching for professional exams and also I am focusing on my handmade cards creations..
I hope things get clear pretty soon..
:) with a positive feeling for the next year to come.. Ta-Da... :)
